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so yeah i got a work in..well im not gonna tell u cuz if i do i maybe get sued? anyway this work place suck cuz i have to stand at the kiosk and do nothing but smsing.hahaha.and reading sum papers and stuff.yeah if coustomer dtg of cuz i serve customer .im alert ok.so one day mum went and visit me right..we sat at the bench..and the were no people at the kiosk..if not mum would inform me.plus my collegue was there.and sekali boss turun memarah i cuz i talked to my mum.FOR GOD SAKE IM TALKING TO MY MUM AND SHE WANTS TO MARAH ME AND CLAMING I X LAYAN CUSTOMER WHEN THERES NO CUSTOMER?? DAMMIT YOU. well anyway she said. (oh and i quote): " if you dont want to do your job,fine, im ok with it.u can stop" haha padan muke ko aku mintak stop malam itu jugak shial la u.pastu masa i dpt keje kat tropicana pujuk2 me to stay.padam muke ko skrg budak india tu lagi teruk dari aku kan?  dah la u x cukup staff nak marah i camtuh.u memang rugi cuz i pandai amik hati customer ahahaha. yeah not to brag but i am good in talking cuz i talked alot.so yeah i know what topic to talk with my customer u *tut*

ok.so u r confused with my story.and i dunno half of what im writing here muahaha

so yeah im sleepy >.<

i sambung esok? actually i have no mood to write lol.

so yeah i got a work in..well im not gonna tell u cuz if i do i maybe get sued? anyway this work place suck cuz i have to stand at the kiosk and do nothing but smsing.hahaha.and reading sum papers and stuff.yeah if coustomer dtg of cuz i serve customer .im alert ok.so one day mum went and visit me right..we sat at the bench..and the were no people at the kiosk..if not mum would inform me.plus my collegue was there.and sekali boss turun memarah i cuz i talked to my mum.FOR GOD SAKE IM TALKING TO MY MUM AND SHE WANTS TO MARAH ME AND CLAMING I X LAYAN CUSTOMER WHEN THERES NO CUSTOMER?? DAMMIT YOU. well anyway she said. (oh and i quote): " if you dont want to do your job,fine, im ok with it.u can stop" haha padan muke ko aku mintak stop malam itu jugak shial la u.pastu masa i dpt keje kat tropicana pujuk2 me to stay.padam muke ko skrg budak india tu lagi teruk dari aku kan?  dah la u x cukup staff nak marah i camtuh.u memang rugi cuz i pandai amik hati customer ahahaha. yeah not to brag but i am good in talking cuz i talked alot.so yeah i know what topic to talk with my customer u *tut*

ok.so u r confused with my story.and i dunno half of what im writing here muahaha

so yeah im sleepy >.<

i sambung esok? actually i have no mood to write lol.

for me it is.. lol. i have a friend..well i he’s my ex and i kinda like him still…but the prob is his taking over his family bussnies..which is like..pffht. i want him to go to college.at least.. just take up wahteva..just for the sake of education..i dun mind that he’s taking over his family busniess.but i kinda want him to be educated..

plus his parents doesnt want him to go to U or college..which is like weird.my parents keep pushing me to go >.<

i dun understand this.his family is like richer than mine. lol. really..my family is like in a big debt and they still pushing me to go to college and all.they say that education is important.. and its a must ( i thought of working in a hotel for life >.<)

and yesterday..well i went out to a movie with a friend.and we took a public transport (train) so there’s this guy with a kid..and he was carrying the kid and the train was kinda packed. so i thought of letting him go in the trian first..i dun mind taking the next train lol.but people keep pushing me and he went in last. in the train..well their these teens who sat down and played with thier phone. texting probably. guess what?they didnt even bother to let the poor man and the kid sit..other word..they didnt offer them to sit….so i open my mouth and say sumthing so sarcasm..and they just look at me.i just smile at them. they didnt get the idea. i feel like slapping them and say "let the poor man sit u dumbass." plus they were in tudung(hijab) and they they are teens goddamit. Malaysian. so INCONSIDERATE. really.they dun say thank you. instead they give u this look like we’re in the wrong. fuck them (sorry for the harsh word) well at least i open my mouth and say sumthing. i actually never did that.that was my 1st time.

so the thing is..malaysian need to be educated.they even had this "thank you" campain..which is soo soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo embarrasing for people from other country/ tourist to see that. plus it doesnt change malaysian.pffht. i wish i can stay in US longer….

>.< epppppp

so im meeting syira,mass and nieta.4 of em are my myspace friends and whom i never met F2F. so im kinda nervous.wait..really nervous!!! i didnt want to look like im over dress..didnt look like im out of place also..the original plan was that i wear the green polo shirt and the dark-street pants, look like goth lar..but instead of the skirt i’m wearing jeans.. sbb x nak over dress.im hoping this polo shirt will do.eep.

im 18 and im meeting the girls who are 15 and 16.eep.i just hope i dun look to old lah

ok then.i gtg.im still nervous. i’ll tell all bout it later okie

so im coming back in 5 days.. i mean 5 days more then i leave..then it takea 2 days then i’ll reacH malaysia… im taking care of bella too and its now 8.12pm.yep guys 8.12pm. so its 8.12am in malaysia right now..and why i am this late? cuz jojo’s and bella’s mum is on their honeymoon vacation.so kak mel, mum and i are in charge of taking care of jojo and bella. we just went to the park.and i have an accident.my knee hurts cuz..hmm i tried to climb the big and the long slide and im stupid enuf cuz i wear my sliper today instead of shoes and i went up on the slide and came thumbling down.really. and i was holding bella. it was unbalance and i had to fall on my knees and bella falls like a sleeping positon..so i kinda like slide with my knees and bella is on the slie too.she likes it anyway..which i dunno why and the whole people in the park just stare at me.i eventually laugh but i was humilated. oh and kak mel did sum “blabla” damn it i know its my fault. dammit.i wish she would never did sum scolding.shittttttt.haha i even imagine cops went to the park and arrest me (u know la..or US suke main saman2 kannn) but fuhh nothing happen and im glad it didnt happen.gaga, im such an idot right..

uhh bella cant stop pulling my pants now cuz she want to come up and see what im doing..and to hentam2 the keyboard.haha shes so cuteeee. im gonna miss this brat…oh no sorry..jojo is the brat.hahha. oh `we`ll.. look i gtg. bella is climbing all over me now.haha

anything else..i can use the comp till morning if i want too..so i edit later or whatever ok.

tattty-ho

i bought reebok sport shoe yesterday..well its on tent sale..meaning clearence.so i got it lik 30 bucks.. but since i’ll get another shoe fre..well kak rose took the "free" shoe for bella [its buy one free one sale]
nah she’ll give me 10 bucks..well if she remembers..muahahaha
well the reebok sho..i prefer skechers better than reebok.or nike.but since its cheap why not right? yeah if i have the money im gonna buy skechers.hehe.

my luggage is damn heavy.and when i say heavy it realllyyyyyy is heavy.and we’re allowed to bring 2 luggage each,max 20kg each.and my luggage is more like 50kg[and its one bag tuh].seriously dude.lots of jeans.crazy man.. and i have 3 jeans which i couldnt fit in [haha im too fat.i gained 10 kg.or more here.im like a balloon now XP]

so now i have to open my luggage again and see what things to bring back..and clothes where i can dump here 1st..dammit.. huu.what luck.well i’ll figure out a wa what to bring in my carry-on luggage in the plane.sigh… i know..i bought too much things..
and hey..there’s a movie coming out..about snakes in the plane..wow i wouldnt want to miss that out

oh and bella is sick again.she look ok,like she laugh and play abit..but shes really hot..and a bit clingy too.. hmm.. sha told me sum things..and mea too.. which obviously i cant write it in here.haha

what else.. nothing i guess.yeah im bored.and nothing to write about.whats going on my head right now its my luggage..its heavy..what should i do?any idea guys?
helppppp

oh tomorrow will go around boston.yeah lots of pics im gonna take
which reminds me..i have to delete more people in my fs. a bit ridiculous i have 200+ friends. i feel like i have 5 je.

haha.thats all.
tatty-ho

p/s:sha,i’ll read ur blog later k.

and the answer is NO. big time.
yes they are truly adorable, like my niece,bella.
but it can turn out like johan too.

plus u have to take care of em.
yeah sure i can hire a nanny to take care of em,
but no way.i dun want too.
i mean.. i want a gud nanny.. but gud nanny also means u have to pay them at a gud price.
which is suck.

i plan out if i ever ready to get married or build a family,
i am gonna stop working.like really stop working and take care of my kids
cuz i wanna be a gud mum.
but.. with the diaper changing and the potty training ,
and not to meantion the house will be a mess with toys..
and that suck.

yeah i guess im not ready to get married or have kids yet.
maybe when im old and grey.haha
yeah i feel like i dun want a husband too.
but i dun want to adopt kids too.
like i wanna get pregnant and have kids without a husband
will that be possible?
i think its against in islam,am i right?
plus i heard like father is very importnat in a kids life
it’ll build up their confidence and all

overall, i think guys are useless. i really want to search like a gud man. real gud man who is real gud and have all the things that i need.really understands me top to down.its hard to trust anyone these days.and… will i find that "the one" malaysia? i think maybe.. but potentially i’ll marry someone who is not malaysian.maybe US citizen. not arabic,not malay, chinese, japanese or indian.i cross out that. ouh mabe mexican too. no no mexican for me.

maybe i;ll marry someone and live away from people. i hate people these days. they just gimme the creep. ok.i think im gonna delete silent friends in my fs. HAHAHA.

end.

i think im feeling normal now.lately i kept thinking bout stupid stuff. HAHA
like.. really stupid stuff and i wont tell here cuz its stupid and u’ll be laughing ur ass out .
mum said sumtimes when ur lonely u do stupid stuff >P
uhh.. what should i write today..nothing much

i kept eating lots of salad yesterday.. yummy
and.. lol i forgot lol..something about bella or jojo yesterday..
like they ade a joke or sumthing

sorry i had a syndrome of short memory lost
talking bout that.. i read a conversation that i’ve saved in yahoo draft..
mirc..talking about a friend..like its nothing biggggg
but i wonder.. why couldnt i think back all to myself?
why i have to read back and then i can recall it?
ngee. i kinda hate it actually…

hurm.. what more.. nothing i guess.just maybe i cant wait to get back home and changed
i bought a dark-street-skirt which is like 6 bucks (did i write here b4?) well its kinda like goth skirt but its like not proper  la so i have to alter it abit here and there… but im thinking now what top would match the skirt? and i dont wanna be all goth and all..and doenst want to be look like a fag either…

so yeah i’ll think of sumthing
maybe browse myspace profile and see what they wear
haha. ok lah
gtg

to stop writing junk in my blog.haha im a junkie. lol. im fuul of junk and i write junks.
i made another account in myspace which is private to anyone until i get bored and add more people in there.haha. i got a lot of junk too in my friends in myspace.i’ll go to that laterr.. anyway
haha nothing i guess.my day is just full of bored-ness.i think i’ll go watch an anime or two later.
i just went to the library and i dunno why but today i feel thirsty all the time?? ngee
hmmmmmm
nothing much today
lol.

[[to ayun:sorry.sorry i ruined ur life.sorry im a jerk.sorry i keep on clinging to you when i should let you go and have ur own life.sorry.thats all i have.sorry. its ok if we cant see each other anymore,talk or even say hello.fine.i understand.no hard feelings.i know.i keep hurting u.i know.i blame me.i point my own index finger at me. at myself.and im not hating myself,im just..dissapointed i guess..to what happen to us now. im just..sorry,and i'll keep on saying sorry.sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.and i keep it on saying sorry until i get bored and god know when i'll stop.im just gonan say sorry silently after this..so i wont mess up ur ym and get u angry all over again.so whenever u see me,think bout me or whateva resemble me.remeber this word:sorry.]]

i talked to some of my friends and yeah.it hink its done.im in peace now,i mean ayun and i will never talked to each other again anad i have no feelings..no feelings like hated,jealousy,angry or whatso ever.he can call me a bizntach to his friends.i dun care anymore..
cuz whateva he says..maybe it aint true.if its true.i dun mind either.im not gonna condamn him.and all lah..haha i got fedup already

peace =)