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yeah..everyone read my blog but x penah nak komen *cough*
im not being sarcarstic ok..
ahaha.. ieda is going already.
so is beehah, iera, and fina =/
and im badaboom bored

gah

so urm..where do i start..
well i know i did said that i was so sad and all bout mum didnt let me but those tee’s and the jacket riteee
so yeah i ‘mengadu’ kat ayun @_@. lol. smsed him. hey.. i cant mengadu kat my friends cuz.. they all so busy and all.. n he’s willing to waste his prepaid on me XD
and i kinda promised him to changed and all
phhff
where do i start?i dont even know.all i know..i still feel the same (sorry ayun =D)
really like..all those feelings that i told ayun lah
my past,present.. my feelings,deep down secret and all =|
now i wonder why am i telling this even to my blog?
phhft

so im guessing here are my plans (even maybe i think cam x jadik je.muahaha..harap2 jadik la erk)

step 1: balik Malaysia,finish allthe important things forst, driving licence,U application etc

step 2: Dont listen to mum if she disapprove.it’s me and i want to change.im not being a bad-ass daughter but i do waht to change.and i do respect my mum and all.. just i just wanna change ok?

step 3;build up confidence

step 4:change.in and out.makeover frm top to toe

step 5: avoid being called a fag,wannabe,goth or whatever lah.i dont want to be labeled ;]] oh and no fighting yeahhh

step 6 :stay like that. oh but stay the same also.treat my friends all the same and stuff.dont be a biach.. and

step 7:if mum disapprove,slow talk. likle real slow.tell her im in my teen years and i need to be myself.i just can be a mum;s girl till im 50 or older =s

step 8:do cosplay.do what i like to do.read magick stuff. read books, mags and hangout,just loving what i like to do.especially cosplay =D

step 9: pffhht.dont waste money ^_^;; [really..im a big spender and i usually spen my money on fud?? oh well.. i need a rich husband with a guddddddddddddd orang gaji =p]

so right now i can only think of that steps only lorh

i am freaking angry.you know why? cuz i cant buy the skull tee’s/ they are like adorable i tell u.but mum wont let me. and i felt so down.still down actually.first the jacket
now this. urgh im freaking here. i am so angry..mad.. sad..all at the ame time.why can mum just let me wear those?
macam la jadi setan pakai baju tu,
anddd boots. ok i want one.yesterday they have this sale only like 30 for this boots and mum pun x bagi.

i am tirred. i wanted to change so long and i havent done anything yet. and im tired of it. i wanna change…

i found this in sumone esle blog and i think its sweet so i decided to copy and paste in my blog. list all the sweet names u can call ur gf/bf

All Mine
Angel
Angel Bunny
Angel Eyes
Angel Face
Angel Girl
Babe
Babes
Baby
Baby Angel
Baby Cakes
Babycheeks
Baby Doll
Baby Doodle
Baby Face
Baby Girl
Babylicious
Baby Love
Beautiful
Big Daddy
Big Kitty
Boo Bear
Boo-Boo
Boy Toy
Braveheart
Brown Sugar
Bunny
Butterfly
Butterscotch
Captain
Chickadee
Chocolate
Chocolate Bunny
Cookie
Cowboy
Cuddle Bear
Cuddle Bug
Cuddles
Cupcake
Cupid
Cutie
Cutie Pie
Darling
Dear
Dearheart
Devil
Doodle Bug
Dreamlover
Firecracker
Gorgeous
Gumdrop
Handsome
Hon
Honey
Honey Bear
Honey Bee
Honey Bunch
Honey Bunny
Honey Buns
Honey Love
Honey Muffin
HoneyPlum
Hot cakes
Hot Honey
Hot Mama
Hot Stuff
Hottie
Kitten
Lady Bug
Little Monkey
Love
Loveable
Love Angel
Love Bear
Love Bug
Love Heart
Love Muffin
Love Nugget
Lover
Lover Boy
Lover Bunny
Lovey Dovey

Lovie
Luvs
Mami
Merlin
Mi Amor
Muffin
Munchkin
My Angel
My Heart
My Love
Papi
Passion Fruit
Petal
Poohbear
Pookie
Precious
Precious Angel
Precious Princess
Pretty Lady
Prince
Prince Charming
Princess
Puddin’
Pumpkin
Punkin’
Pussycat
Red Rose
Sex Kitten
Sexy
Sexy Kitten
Sexy Lady
Sexy Pie
Sexy Sweet Thang
Smoochie Poo
Snow Bunny
Snuggle Bear
Snuggle Bug
Snuggle Bunny
Snuggle Pooh
Snuggles
Sparky
Star
Starfish
Stinker
Stud Muffin
Sunshine
Sugar
Sugar Babe
Sugar Bear
Sugar Buns
Sugar Cookie
Sugar Free
Sugar Lips
Sugar Mama
Sugar Pie
Sugarplum
Sunshine
Sweet
Sweet Cheeks
Sweet Lover
Sweet Pea
Sweet Peach
Sweet Stuff
Sweetheart
Sweetie
Sweetie Pie
Sweetness
Sweets
Sweety Cakes
Tadwinks
Teddy
Teddy Bear
Tiger
Tweetums
Twinkie
Twinkle Toes
Wookie
Wuggle Bear
Wiggles
Woobie
Wuggles
Yummy Bear

everyone of my friends dah masuk U. uhh im like all alone. the only person i chat s wif ayun and amir i think. kak mel and abg him. uhh

so im bored. freaking bored. =/

yesterday went to westgate and lucky me i saw the jacket that i want (they have a big skull in front og the jacket ) and its was like 18 bucks. and guess what? i have 17 bucks. 1 buck short. urgh. i feel like jumping up and down.a sked mum and she didnt like the idea of me buying the jacket. got 2 left, L and XXL. gosh. mum didnt want to lend her money also. i cant ask much. i am sad i couldnt get that jacket and god knows how or when i can get it. maybe next week i go i wouldnt see the jacket anywhere. and that sucks.

i dont blame mum. she of course want me to be good and all and not stuck with all this black, dark stuff…and i know how she feels if i wear those stuff and her friends see me and all. like my mum didnt take care of me or just let me be like dat and all. like.. im not gonna wear em if i ever see mum’s friends. i dunno. she said she doesnt wwant me to buy that jacket but then..
argh i dunno larh

i guess i go cry on my pillow cuz x dpt beli jacket tu

haha.typical girlish gurl =p. no lah. i am mourning over that jacket but not until i cry lah. im not that stupid.. but it’s for like 18 bucks. ! gosh if i ever changed my mind maybe i can sell it to sum punk or whateva lah in malaysia kan. put a price of rm100.haha i make a lot. muahahaha
im an evil biach.am i?

gosh im bored =/

so my older sis went to Klang [in Malaysia] to fix her car right

and saw this 2 cute kittens in the middle of the road

she saved them and they followed her

so then she said she’ll have sleepless nights thinking bout this kittens

and decided to take them home

named them tom and jerry

Apparently they are not scared of the engine sound too

so it means i can take them for car rides =]]

my sis havent take any pics of em either =/

omg i miss my cats =[[

today.her bday was like 2 weeks ago but its soccay lah.. so dinner bday-party bella is today. steak! i want steak ! >P
actually im thikng bout pakai lawa2.. haha tp nanti ter-over lak.. so
i dunno what im gonna wear..maybe just a long sleeve tee. gosh i waana look good tho. i wish i have a straightener here so i can do my  hair or whateva =/
oh well..maybe just a black tee with jeans… uhh..
umm.. nothing to write actually..just.. im dun have ‘the mood’ lately and all..
and should i wear makeup? uhh maybe just dap here and there. hah im so ignorance.
nope. i think im vein a away.. >P
ah wtf. i think i have no mood for anything except reading,
im reading acholic and sister. quite groovy ^^
k la. gtg.bye love

u know what i found out? actually americans kan.. the bill phones.. apparantly we have to pay for incoming calls too. and msges im not mistken…so its like they earning double.. man that is so unfair..
well anyway..nothing to talk bout except been thnking what wil happen to my future. its not like ‘que sera,sera’, its not what ever will be will be ok. its like.. horror to think of it.. like.. sooner or later i will eventually have kids.. LIKE MY OWN KIDS!!!. omg.. i mean.. i couldnt really handle bella.. and.. what if i have kids? oh man.. and what will future holds ?? will my husband love me till im dead? or will he eventually run off with sum other hot single woman?
ok i know  im being silly and all.. just that been thinking lots lately until sampai stress.. can u believe it..
and….
im all alone here without my friends.. like i cant really talk to them except chatting and emailing and commenting each other and that sucks. i havent meet sha,bee yaya and thea for like a year i guess! and adah..its like 6 years already.. and im tired actually.. im hoping i can go back asap.. like now.. i wanna see mu buddies. gosh i fuckin miss u guys sooo much!!!
im so alone.. it bores me sumtimes..and im not good in making friends..like.. i
mesti kelam-kabut kalau org tanye me question.. (i mean when im in US) and most of the time i just  ’shy’ being with people like my mum’s friends and all
gah.. i hate this kinda life.. kak mel warned me already but being boring and all.. i dun mind actually.. cuz im with bella.. but.. no friends.. its like nearly dead
gah…!!!